It's Been... 3 YEARS! But I'll Always gonna MISS YOU, ATOK

3 years back... on this date, 20th January...
I still remember... I woke up a bit late than usual...
It's 8.30am...
And I realized... it ain't right...

Quickly... I ran to the next door...
Atok still in her sleep...

"Atok... atok... bangun, atok..."
No replied...
I checked her... head... pulse... and I noticed... it's cold...
NO! It can't be...!!!

I called my mom... "Mak... atok! Mak, atok... mak!"
I  heard my mom screamed...
Quickly called abah & my others siblings...
Later on... my mom called the ambulan...

Me with my other 6 siblings... busy clearing up the hall...
Abah n mak... calling all the sibling, cousins...

Alhamdulillah... syukur semua org sempat sampai untuk jenguk Atok buat kali terakhir...
Even, Achu yg ms tu kerja di Sipitang, Sabah pun sempat sampai...
Kak Nor yg mmg duduk di Kedah pun sempat sampai jenguk Atoknya...
Adik-beradik² atok dari Parit Buntar, Taiping, sekitar Perak & Kedah pun sempat datang...
Paling terharu... anak² murid atok yg pernah belajar mengaji dgn atok pun ada yg datang...
Syukur alhamdulillah...

3 days before atok passed away...
I knew something ain't rite...
But, I'm not sure...
So... I asked around...
Yes... all the "tanda²"... aku dah nampak...
Mungkin sebab tak tahu... tak mahu mengiyakan malah menidakkan serta membuang jauh PERASAAN itu...

Ya Allah... Ya Tuhanku...
Ampunkan segala dosa² hambaMu...
Permudahkan segala urusan...
Tempatkan lah mereka di kalangan org² yg beriman...
Amin... Ya Rabbal a'lamin...

Al~Fatihah buat nenda tersayang, Hajjah Rahmah Mustafa...

22.1.1926 ~  20.1.2008