Melanie C ~ Never Be The Same Again

Come on. Ooh, yeah.
Never be the same again.

I call you up whenever things go wrong.
You're always there. You are my shoulder to cry on.
I can't believe it took me quite so long.
To take the forbidden step.
Is this something that I might regret?

(Come on, come on)
Nothing ventured nothing gained.
(You are the one)
A lonely heart that can't be tamed.
(Come on, come on)
I'm hoping that you feel the same.
This is something that I can't forget.

I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

Now I know that we were close before.
I'm glad I realised I need you so much more.
And I don't care what everyone will say.
It's about you and me.
And we'll never be the same again.

I thought that we would just be friends (oh yeah).
Things will never be the same again. (Never be the same again)
It's just the beginning it's not the end. (We've only just begun)
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door. (Opened up the door)
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

Nite and day.
Black beach sand to red clay.
The US to UK, NYC to LA.
From sidewalks to highways.
See it'll never be the same again.
What I'm sayin'
My mind frame never changed 'til you came rearranged.

But sometimes it seems completely forbidden.
To discover those feelings that we kept so well hidden.
Where there's no competition.
And you render my condition.
Though improbable it's not impossible.
For a love that could be unstoppable.

But wait.
A fine line's between fate and destiny.
Do you believe in the things that were just meant to be?
When you tell me the stories of your quest for me.
Picturesque is the picture you paint effortlessly.

And as our energies mix and begin to multiply.
Everyday situations, they start to simplify.
So things will never be the same between you and I.
We intertwined our life forces and now we're unified.

I thought that we would just be friends.
Things will never be the same again.
It's just the beginning it's not the end.
Things will never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
Now we've opened up the door.
Starting tonight and from now on.
We'll never, never be the same again.

(Come on, come on)
Things will never be the same again.
(You are the one)
Never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
It's not a secret anymore.
We'll never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.
Never be the same again.

da hardest way...

This road... got no way of turning back...
This road... is what I choose to live...
This road... is becoming part of my life that I need to go through...
Even... it is... da hardest thing that I ever wanted

I would love to RUN...
As much as... I love to RUN for a jog, for a walk...
Just to release... to heal... all the heartaches, all the wound that never wanted to go away...
But I guess... it is ... da hardest thing that I ever let go...

It ain't easy... da way I want it...
It ain't easy... to live... to survive...
Even for at least... to breathe easy...

Incubus ~Promises, promises

~Verse 1~

I'm only 23 for another hour give or take,
I'm a fan or yours and I need a good mistake.
I'm not a sinner or preacher, all I have is Sleight of Hand...
I do magic tricks for all the boys in the band.

~Bridge~

Baby can I be... the rabbit in your hat.
I'd swing if you'd hand me... hand me the bat.

~Chorus~

I'm on the road of least resistance!
I'd rather give up then give in to this.
So promise me only one thing would you...
Just don't ever make me promises... no promises.
... oh no promises.


~Verse 2~

I've never done this before, promises promises.
But I'm enjoying the illusion and the things my body says.
Now you see me, now you don't... oh how well you disappear.
What are you running from? And may I interfere?

~Bridge~

Baby can I be... the rabbit in your hat.
I'd swing if you'd hand me... hand me the bat. (x2)

~Chorus~
I'm on the road of least resistance!
I'd rather give up then give in to this.
So promise me only one thing would you...
Just don't ever make me promises... no promises.
... oh no promises.

...I choose NOT TO...

It's here...
It's there...
And it's all over da place...

What should I do?
Why should I bother?
Why do I need to think about it & be part of it?

Oh... wait up..
Almost forgot...
It's already SEALED UP nicely!
It's already SAID & DONE...

And for that... I CHOOSE NOT TO...

Melbourne... just a dream!

Last nite... Hazel + Dhamin + Keisha & Izan + her mom + her aunt.... on board & off to Melbourne, Australia at 10.30pm...
Da trip dat supposely join by me + fara & mc yah + sharx + absyar & maizura + hubby + razyn
Deeply sighhh...

Huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....
I felt bad & sorry esp to Fara!!!
And also to Hazel...

Definitely.. goin to miss out chances to snap pictures...
Sob sob sob

Seriously, let's get ANNOYED

At some point... when everybody starts to do this & that...
Observing you almost at every single things you do...
Trying to poke / interfere in everything you write / post / updates...
Perhaps.. the thoughts of being FRIENDLY? AWARES? CONCERN?!!
Oh come on lah....
Sometimes.. it's just SOOO DAMN FREAKIN ANNOYIN...

Get a LIFE!!!
Coz I need MINE TOO... my OWN SWEET TIME!!!
Pfbtttt...!!!

Gibraltar ~ Lil England... I must say!

Gibraltar ~
I found this country while doing registration...
(maapler, den ngaku den lomahhh geografi... huhuhu!)
Here's a bit bout this Lil' England...

Gibraltar is a British overseas territory located on the southern end of the Iberian Peninsula at the entrance of the Mediterranean.

A peninsula with an area of 6.843 square kilometres (2.642 sq mi), it has a northern border with Andalusia, Spain.

The Rock of Gibraltar is the major landmark of the region. At its foot is the densely populated city area, home to almost 30,000 Gibraltarians and other nationalities.

p/s: wahai WENGERZ... jom! ekekeke...

al ~ kesah nyer...

Semua orang ada jatuh bangun nya sendiri...
Siap tersungkur... tergolek... terjelepok... konar bareng baek lagi...
eh boleh plak masuk terselit acara sukan... heh!

Kalau boleh... setiap tugasan... urusan... yang diperoleh... nawaitu sememangnya mahukan yang sempurna... tanpa sebarang cacat cela...
Tapi, kadang² ralatnya... kala cuba mengekalkan reputasi... memperbaiki diri...
Lain pula kisahnya...

Antara... terasa diri ini bagai jatuh ditimpa tangga...
Ibarat... diri ditolak dari tingkat paling atas sekali...
Bohong... aku tak kecewa dgn hasilnya...

Tak daya menunding... ditunding... lagi tertonggeng! (eh tonggeng?!!)
Tak terniat langsung... menghampakan apatah lagi mengecewakan...
Dan kalau boleh dipertingkatkan... digandakan...itu sememangnya agenda utama

Yang kurasa...

Keluh kesah... bagaikan nyanyian sinonim harianku...
Remuk rendam... ungkapan itu bagaikan torehan luka yang menusuk
Gundah gulana... memikirkan nasib yang tiada kesudahan tidak keruannya...
Haru biru... kian menjalar tiap waktu dalam diri yang tiada hentinya berusaha...

Kental... itukah aku?
Tabah... mampukah aku?
Berserah... cukup sudahkah usahaku?

clearing d air...

we talk... we chat... we sms..
nuthin more... that I ever wanted from YOU...
new journey... new phase... new diary...
yup, feelin way better than d earliest..
perhaps... this is what we shud be..
and at least... this relationship... will remains...
Insya Allah...

on d other half...
another person... another life...
d ol crush... d ol feelin...
it's gettin stronger...
perhaps... d ol sparks might turns into sumthin dat been longin' belongs to sumone dearly...
nahhh... never put HOPES for sumthin dat needs MIRACLE indeed...

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Whut a name...

Seriously... since working at AFC... and did all the registrations for players, officials etc...
Da one thing that really makin' my day is definitely reading those names...
Total + massives + big bombs of da day... before I proceed to register it...
Hua hua hua...

p/s: jahat la ko ni, mie!

But seriously... it's all starts with when I register this name, Yousuf Ejaz Butt...!!!
(agaknya, koje ekau meng-adjust montot kah?)
Ha ha ha hadoiiiiiiii...
Player of Pakistan if I'm not mistaken...
I'm having a problem to register him due to his nationality coz he's born in UK but nak wakil main bola untuk Pakistan...
Nak gelaknya... siap bagi surat beranak atok & mak dia untuk membuktikan dia ni memang anak Pakistan...
Hu hu hu... lawak btol!

Then, later on... I found this 1 name... Shadap Samuel!
Oh gosh!!!
Agaknya masa kecik² kecik ko kuek naness ni...
Sampai bapak ekau tense... lalu ter-register Shut up, Samuel!
Dan kerana penemuan nama player India ni... nama mamat ni sampai ke pengetahuan almost senior² staff AFC yg aku baik... siap buat bahan lawak everytime lepak minom kopi....
Aziz ler ni! Gi kecow masa party celebration bulan 3 hari tu... hua hua hua!

Adeh deh deh..
Diikuti few names lagi... like Je-On Minah (nasib bukan Minah Ju-On)
Then, PatimaKorn SawanPorn (da long lost members of Korn yg ada Sawan Porn?!!)
Next... Arnab Kumar Kemal (Arnab?!! serius x tepuuu!)
And paling latest, semalam.. den jumpa nama ni, Shake Shaker Mousa!
Jenuh aku memikior cenggana nak sobut nama pak arab ni...
Ghupernya Sheikh Syakir Musa!
Dayyemmmm...

Ampon kan saya... saya xde niat nak persendakan nama² berkenaan...
Hu hu hu... but this is REAL...
I'm not makin up... totally dalam website registration AFC...
Adeh deh deh...

SIGNAL la wehhh... pokemon btol!

I think... da main reason why drivers in Malaysia didn't give SIGNALS when they want to change directions might be coz... AFRAID that da BATTERY of the car... gettin less? or maybe gonna effects the FUEL?

I don't know...

Sunggoh kudukut tahi untot! Warkhhh...!!!

Just imagine... in a massives jammed... dats definitely caused by all these kind of drivers who loved to nyelit~selit~terselit... skali SCARTCHED keta org laen...

Memang POKEMON la, kan!

Udah ler x bagi SIGNALS... ekspresi muka tu.. mak aih...

kalaulah boleh haku TONYOH dgn tgn time tu... HEYBART gak...

Tak luak pun weh... bagi SIGNALS...

Xde nyer nak abes BATERI / MINYAK KETA ko tuh kalau bagi SIGNALS

All you need to do is.. FLICK your MIDDLE FINGER.. eh bukan... heh!

FLICK aje SIGNALS yang sememangnya hader kat stereng keta memasing...

SENANG je kan!

Renung²kan.. bebawak ler FLICK da MIDDLE FINGAaaa... eh salah lagi... itu SIGNAL la weh!!!

Sekian!

...a day wit beloved AJ a.k.a ABAH

Off to Manjung as early in the morning (4.30am) with my dear beloved abah... for Idah & Jalil + Iqbal & Rasitah majlis bersanding...
Yerrr... 2 majlis kahwin...
Patotnya ada 2nd photographer...
Lewat petang Jumaat diberitakan yg kwn ku itu tidak dapat menyertai...
Huuu...

Tak pasal, abah den jadik peneman...
Anyway BIG Salutes!!!
Tenkiu, abah so much!!!
But kesian jugak, coz he needs to wait me until the kenduri ended...
Siap polow gi outdoor okeh!
Nasib x suh pegang lampu... ekekeke!

p/s: Fara, abah ku boleh cantas mu wehhh...
kui kui kui...

Mencicit laju ler jugak aku drive ke Manjung awal pagi tu setelah Idah sms kata make up start pkl 8am...
Aishhh.. sod bha rha aje teman...
Alih² pkl 11am baru start semua...
Huuu...

Kenduri bermula sekitar 1pm... dan berakhir sekitar 4pm...
2 pasang penganten + sesi potong kek + outdoor shoots...

Sudah kenduri, aku n abah sempatlah balik singgah Tanjung Malim...
Windooooooo afjaaa bam bam...

Kitorg gerak pulang ke KL kira² lg 5 minit before match antara Kelantan vs Terengganu abes..

p/s: mati² aku ingt Kelantan menang, ok!
Taw² esk pagi baca paper, ghupernya Ganu weh!
Oh sunggoh terperanjat!

There's nuthin...

There's nuthin...
dat I would / want to change for everything..
dat I've been thru...

Those difficulties...
Those ignorant...
Those hesitations...

I know... there's some FINE day...
It just meant to be...
For me...

Insya Allah...

TRUTH is more than any fugly-iest thang...

Truth is HURT...
Truth is REAL...
Truth is definitely da FUGLY~iest thang...
With TRUTH... it does, THOUGHTS me...
Everything that I always WONDER & SCARE to FACE & DEAL with ...
But in the end...
that's how we LEARN...
we TRY our best...

and GIVE everything to make it REAL...

Life Ain't Dat EASY...

interviews... and da most waited call!

got interview.. yesterday!
hmm... just makes me wonder...
got called today from AFC!
hmm... a month contract again!

...SIGH!

d unrelated...

how do you FEEL... when sum1... say sumthin... directly to you... and relate to whatever things you do in life... especially... bout ur own job...

bukan bermakna terlalu EMOSI...
bukan sebab AGAK SENSITIF...
bukan kerana tak boleh DITEGUR...

aku datang dengan satu misi... satu niat... satu tujuan...

aku tinggalkan KECELARUAN...
aku lupakan KESESAKAN
aku abaikan KESERABUTAN
...dalam hari²ku yang kian menggugat KESTABILAN diri...

kenapa perlu dikaitkan... disamakan...
dgn apa yang aku buat dalam hidup terutamanya tentang PERIUK NASI aku...

sekarang ni... misi aku itu... tujuan aku itu...
memberi SUMBANGAN kah kepada PERIUK NASI aku?

aku sanggup BERLAPAR,
aku sampai sanggup berJIMAT CERMAT
aku tekad berSIAP SEDIA
demi untuk mengharungi TUJUAN itu...

jadi, apa RELEVAN nya dgn menghubungkaitkan PERIUK NASI dgn TUJUAN aku?
2 PERKARA dgn NAWAITU yg AMAT KETARA BERBEZA...

Sudahlah tidak tahu apa yang aku lalui demi sesuap nasi...
Sudahlah semborono membuat ringkasan dalam tingkah laku...
Dan sekali lagi... apa KAITAN nya PERIUK NASI dgn TUJUAN aku itu tadi?

Nak kata aku ini kesayangan... bukan!
Nak kata aku ini ditandatangan... oh sunggoh perasan!
Tapi... kenapa aku jua yg perlu disebut...?
Peliknya... kenapa aku juga yg dijadikan panduan...?

Mungkin betul kata kawan aku tempoh hari kala mengajaknya utk turut serta...
Bila sesuatu yg kita buat itu bukan kerana terpaksa... lebih SERONOK hasilnya...
Tapi, bila DISURUH KOMITED tanpa HITAM PUTIH... TERPAKSA itu lah hasil produk akhirnya...

shoots + back ache + xpired lesen

I've been jobless since last Wed... due to my HOD yg always forgot to renew my contract...
RISAU... tayah cakap.. memikiorkan nasib diri yg agak tertekan sambil dilambong ombak tunggang - tonggeng - terbalek...

Alhamdulillah... Ijoy of Conteng Photography (a friend whom I've known when doing part time at Foto Prime) called & offered me a last minute job shoot..

Syukur sgt... ye lah... nak harapkan belen payment dr sifoo² dr bln 1 smpi la msk bln 6... mcm PENGEMIS jua PEMINTA sedekah...(oh sunggoh TEKANAN perahsantan)

Lepas la byr bil² yg sekian lama aku cuba elak PENDING.... terPENDING jua... akhirnya... syukran jazilan...

On the other hands... my back been feeling so bad... and is ache... iiing MADLY...
Gosh.. I just wish there's someone would "krakkkk..." my back for God sake!

And guess what... last nite... I just realized dat I've been driving here n there with my XPIRED LICENSE for almost a month...

Wahlauuu.... nasib baik lah tiada PENAHANAN berlaku kala daku tidak sah di jalan raya...
Ha ha ha...

Lifehouse ~ Breathing

I'm finding my way back to sanity, again
Though I don't really know what
I am gonna do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back in the arms of grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I am looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want o be here now

between REALITY & TV SERIES

Perhaps... it is sumthin'... that happen in our daily life... 

In fact, not just some random coincidence that could / would happen...

We can't really run from it... 

Yet, we definitely can LEARN from it...

As much I would luv to watch certain TV SERIES dat I've been following since I got da chance of translate it...

• Brothers & Sisters
• Grey's Anatomy
• Criminal Minds
• Private Practice

Definitely... gave me sum inputs into a larger scale of DEFINITION in my REAL LIFE...

Life dat I've been dealing... since I've made my mind... my decision... 

Thou I wish I could turn back time... & hoping I don't have the GRUDGE & feel da pain dat I've been SUFFERING for all dat been said & done

As much as I want it to point it back to those people...

But think again... perhaps I'm da one who made that things happens...

Or perhaps... I feel bad & guilty for not being able to point it (at all) to THEM...

It's just SAD... or perhaps da rite word, PATHETIC...

All alone... by yourself...

With HOPES & DREAMS... 

Dat it could / would be SUMONE... will be there for YOU... always gonna be there for YOU

And da FACT... it's goin to be...just A HOPE... just a DREAM

Distracted

Due to a lot of things happening...
Thou been trying to put a lot of EFFORTS & CONCENTRATION...
Yet & still... it's just drive me INSANELY... of being too much & easily DISTRACTED!

Perhaps...
Da calmness & focus just taken away... in a jiffy!
Damn!!!

To get back into da track...
Tryin to capture & being able to have da MOOD...
Damn is fudging TIRING & it is a fudging MESS!!!

To trigger & put yourself into dat condition & situation...
It's like... starting from da ground zero...
Or perhaps... d engine is already FUCKED UP!

Just one nite...

Da guilt is every where...
Keep haunting...
Keep taunting...
Perhaps... it's because of that one particular nite...

Maybe I'm da one to blame...
Maybe YOU are the reason for whatever nonsense & da misbehave...
Maybe WE are not meant to be...
And maybe... it's just another SINS...

Seeing YOU here...
Reading YOU there...
Watch YOU everywhere...
It's really torn ME every single STRENGTH dat I've been trying to gain after it's over...

Avril Lavigne - Smile